Before the stroke, I was the kind of person who described themselves as 'type A' with pride. I worked sixty-hour weeks. I had strong opinions about everything and shared them freely. I tracked my steps, my macros, my productivity metrics. I was exhausting to be around, and I considered that a feature, not a bug. The stroke happened on a Tuesday in March. I woke up three days later, and the person who opened my eyes was not the person who had closed them.
The physical recovery was grueling but straightforward — re-learning to walk, to grip, to speak without slurring. The personality recovery was something else entirely. The stroke had damaged my frontal lobe. The ambition was gone. The sharpness was blunted. The drive that had powered sixty-hour weeks had simply evaporated, and in its place was something I had never experienced before: contentment. Simple, quiet, unambitious contentment. I could sit for an hour watching birds at a feeder. I took up coloring, genuinely, not as rehab but as something I enjoyed. I cried at things — commercials, songs, my daughter's voice on the phone. I had not cried in twenty years before the stroke.
My family didn't know what to do with me. They'd built their lives around the old version — the planner, the provider, the person who solved problems. The new version needed problems solved for him. He was softer, slower, more present. Some of my old colleagues were uncomfortable. A few asked if I was depressed. I wasn't depressed. I was, for the first time in my adult life, not running. The stroke took my ambition and gave me peace. I wouldn't have chosen the trade. But now that it's happened, I'm not sure I'd trade back.
What I wish someone had told me: personality change after a stroke is not a failure of recovery. It's part of it. The person you become isn't a diminished version of the person you were. They're a different person, and they deserve to be met with curiosity instead of grief. The coloring books aren't a regression. They're evidence that I've finally learned how to be still.
— A reader of The Unadulting Society
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