The Holiday That Demands You Hate Yourself
New Year's is not actually about hope. It's about dissatisfaction, repackaged as ambition. Every January, the culture serves you the same message: you are not enough as you are. Lose weight. Get organized. Be more productive. Fix everything that's wrong with you. The calendar turns and suddenly your existence is a project that needs management. For people with disabilities, chronic illness, neurodivergence, or executive dysfunction, this message is especially cruel — because the things you're being told to 'fix' are often things you can't control, or things that aren't actually problems except that society has decided they are.
I spent years making resolutions I couldn't keep — not because I lacked willpower, but because the resolutions assumed a brain and body I didn't have. 'Be more organized' assumed executive function I didn't possess. 'Work out every day' assumed energy I was already spending just to exist. Every failed resolution reinforced the belief that I was lazy, undisciplined, bad at being a person. The problem wasn't me. The problem was the rubric. (This is a theme, I know. It keeps being true.)
Permission to Opt Out
You don't have to make resolutions. You don't have to set goals for the year. You don't have to 'hit the ground running' in January. You can enter the new year exactly as you are — tired, surviving, still here — and that's enough. The calendar is a human invention. January 1st is not a deadline for self-improvement. It's just a Tuesday. Treat it accordingly.
Alternative New Year's Practices
- •Instead of setting goals, name what you survived last year. Write it down. 'I made it through that flare-up.' 'I got a diagnosis.' 'I kept myself alive.' These are not lesser achievements than 'I lost weight.' They're greater.
- •Instead of a resolution, pick one word for the year. Soft. Rest. Enough. Slow. Something that gives you permission rather than demands. Let the word sit with you. Don't make it a task.
- •If you have to participate in resolution culture — at work, with family — have a script ready. 'I'm focusing on rest this year' or 'I'm taking a different approach' or just 'I don't really do resolutions.' You don't owe anyone a performance of self-improvement.
- •Protect yourself from resolution media. Mute the fitness ads. Skip the 'new year new you' emails. Curate your inputs the way you'd curate a sensory environment that was hostile.
You Are Already Enough
The year that just ended — you lived through it. With whatever limitations, whatever struggles, whatever days you couldn't get off the couch. You're still here. That's not a failure that needs fixing. That's evidence of survival. The new year doesn't require a new you. It just requires you. However you show up, at whatever capacity, that's enough.
— Marin
About the Author
Marin is a late-diagnosed autistic and ADHD adult who burned out at 34 and stopped making New Year's resolutions shortly after. They live in Oregon with a rescue cat named Bug. Their only resolution this year is 'drink water sometimes' and they're okay with that.
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